Having fun?

Why is it that when I organise to write, 70% of the time I wonder why I am doing it? Either my mind decides to shut down, go on strike and refuses to give up the information or.... well, I enjoy it and write for a bit, 30% of the time.
So tonight, as I was chatting to God, figuring out whether or not I was exercising for myself or for others, I remembered the promise God gave me (and the day I told God) that it was going to be an adventure with Him. That fun was what we were going to have. So I realised that something must be wrong if I'm not enjoying writing.
So I asked myself, why am I writing?
To inspire and influence children.
Awesome answer right?
Wrong.
Well...sort of wrong, I mean it's a pretty good answer.
Back to the point though...
I should be writing for myself. I should be writing to get to know God better. This is what it is all about. It's actually meant to be fun, to be an adventure, so when it isn't there is something wrong. I was trying to hard to write to please everyone I forgot about writing to please myself. I should want to know what's happening, want to know how it ends, but instead I'm wondering if I'm getting the message across. Whoops. How do I want to story to end? Exactly how I want the story to end.

Don't loose weight for anyone other than yourself. Don't write for someone other than yourself, it wont be fun and pretty soon it'll turn into a job you hate.